DS Maolalaí has been nominated four times for Best of the Net and three times for the Pushcart Prize. His poetry has been released in two collections, “Love is Breaking Plates in the Garden” (Encircle Press, 2016) and “Sad Havoc Among the Birds” (Turas Press, 2019).

 

Inscriptions.

 

reading through books

in a second hand store

like shopping at lunchtime

for fresh apples –

standing at a stall

in the temple bar market

and testing for age and firmness,

 

looking down

along the sides

for signs of any rot.

 

incidental sweetness

people’s penciled carelessness

scored in brown marks.

 

~

 

My legacy.

 

it’s one thing, this

doing poetry,

but the bathroom needed tiling

and my aunt had taken a break

from her paintings

so we could knock it all out

quickly and in one afternoon.

 

last time they were done

was nearly 60 years earlier – fixed in

by my grandfather, dead now, and sometimes

also a poet. I’ve never read his stuff –

he didn’t publish much,

just wrote them down

longhand with pencils and cigarettes

to throw away. and we peeled it

back with chisels, hammers

and broken screwdrivers, killed any spiders

and sanded the walls. Then

we applied cement

and pushed in the fresh ones. all

very good. new paint

and waterproof grouting. white and tile-grey,

 

like teeth and white toothpaste. I stood back, imagining

it stuck there – my work to last

for as long as the house would still stand. the toilet,

new too

in the centre. waiting for piss to come toppling,

spitting like poems

on a winedrunk night.

 

~

 

The van.

 

I didn’t want it

much. didn’t want to take

a bus journey to an office

in a new location

and when they offered me

a vehicle

I also didn’t

want that.

 

but they were insistent

and finding a new job

would be difficult

in the circumstances.

girlfriend maybe pregnant

and we’re looking

for a house.

 

and of course

you do get used to things;

try out various routes

and find a quick one

through the city.

get used to reading less

and figuring out the radio.

 

the way things happen

without their meaning to happen.

like breaking the leather

in uncomfortable shoes.

seals on the wreck

of an easy life – watching

as whales topple icefloes.

 

~

 

Midnight mass

 

it’s an ancient choir;

dust, wool clothes

and christmas

carols. and somehow

they sound better

than any

beautiful song. the way a garden

looks better

with blackbirds picking

than peacocks. old ladies,

all age

and no

immaculate notes.

it’s midnight mass, 9pm, and rag-drunk

on wine since sundown. candles

all over, making light

with the varnish

of wood. and the prose

from the gospels

frankly not bad either.

you could almost believe

that these people believe it.

you could almost believe

something else.